Well here we go…
This is my first attempt at sharing my thoughts and ideas with anyone besides myself, my mum and my husband Kevin. i am not ususally one for writing, but the opportunity to share ideas and hunt for inspiration is the reason I am joining the technological age.
I am 36……
I have two sensational children, Kiara (3) who is confident, curious, talks too much and wants to know how everything works including the workings of the human body. "How did I come out of your tummy, mum?" Never did I expect to be discussing the intricacies of childbirth with a 3 year old, but i was honest and delicately truthful, to which she replied, ‘did it hurt?" mmmmm.
Then there is Enya, who has just turned one. After recovering from chicken pox we celebrated with a family bbq. Enya is quite simply cheeky with a capital C. She is very cuddly and cute and has been referred to as flea or midgie (due to her incessant bouncing and biting), and bubbles (use your imagination).
They are my girls.
The reason I have begun this journey is due to them. I have suffered post natal depression and slowly realised that I had lost part of myself, kept it hidden. "I don’t have time for that!". I am a creative person. I have always dabbled in the areas of art and craft. I have a bachelor of Visual Arts in Gold and Silversmithing and a Bachelor of education in early Childhood. I am not allowed to be depressed. I should know what I am doing.
Hold on. I am human.
I always thought I would be a mum who would make my kids clothes and toys and paint fantastic murals on their bedroom walls. I would make fabulous jewellery and trinkets. My children would grow up around beautiful things, interesting patterns, smells, shapes, colours and textures. They would appreciate simple beauty.
Thats why I am here.
Thats the mum I choose to be.
And that person was not completely lost, just hiding. Hiding under obligation and her own expectations of what a good mum should be.
A good mum should be able to be herself. Creative, interesting, funny, comforting,friendly, supportive, relaxed, engaged.
I am a mum.
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Congratulations on making your first blog! I’m not usually a writer either but I’m hoping to improve as time goes on.
It’s fantastic to hear that you are managing your post-natal depression. Having a baby is like nothing else.
I’m glad to hear that I’m not the only mum whose has a sookie sick husband. They are far worse than the babies……
Look forward to hearing more about you and beautiful girls!
Hi, I am a mum who suffered from PND and still take my happy pills on a daily basis - although now more for stress than depression….Good for you and go for it…being the type of mummy you want to be.